I’m 23 and i dont know anything

I was 15 and i didnt understand that i have any rights to decide.

I was 17 and i didn’t care if what im doing is right, i want it anyway.

I was 20 and i didnt know if i really want it, i just do whatever i can do to survive.

I was 22, i thought i had done something. i wish i had done something. but i know nothing about how to get what i want.

Now i am pretty sure